change

some times we feel like running away, escaping...that's what i feel right now. Too much negativity surrounds me, I can't take it anymore. Why do we have to pretend& pretend? Pretend that we are ok, that what happens doesn't affect us...
I would like to change. I would like to say" what people think of me means nothing to me", to say " I don't care" but now is not the time.
maybe I'm not ready to change,not yet.