love

love.
we grow up learning how to love.
how to love our families, our homes,countries.
to love our selves.
love our things, our hobbies.
to love our believes, the things that show our identity.
to love everything around us, to love life itself.

but something has just occurred to me; what if...
what if i'm loving the wrong way?
what if i'm loving something or someone but not getting the love back?
what if loving that thing is hurting me rather than making me happy?
what if the job i'm happy in, i'm loving is the one that's really pulling me down?
i have reached great ranks in it, i love it, i love its owners, principles, workers, yet i don't feel happy in it.
or maybe, i've loved it way too much to the extent that i can't love it any more, i gave all i can give.

is loving your way of eating is getting you fatter? are you happy about that?
is loving the poems you grew up with making you happier or depressing you?
is your phone's home screen, where you chose the best quote the one that you love the most, is taking you higher into the sky, or dragging you down, suffocating you?



love is a big word. when we use it we attach our selves to it.
we feel like we can not let go, as if i'm losing one of my limbs if i did so.


i have realised that i have surrounded my self with things that i love, but they are the things that might lead to my death.
loving people who are not mine to love
loving a lifestyle that has nothing to do with my lifestyle.

not everything you love is worth the love you're giving, therefore i have reached my new resolution.

i will let go of the things i love the most.

let go of the people i thought i loved, the ones who think since they have my truest love they can do as they please.
letting go of the lifestyle that i thought i loved.
loving my good side, the side which people around me love; the sweet,polite,shy girl
loving my not too bad side. the side that asks for its rights in a sweet,polite way.
loving that i can say no without hurting anyones feelings, but hey! they did hurt mine, so why not?
loving the things that i hate the most using them as a shield against the things that i used to love once.

try to love the correct way.